life was hopping along quite nicely -M/s wise. things were progressing in the way we had wanted and this rabbit was pretty much content with everything DESPITE all the worries and anxieties over W’s condition.
i was still in a happy state.
these days however i find myself in a cloud. my brain is just not functioning properly most days, i have a hazy, dizzy, disoriented feel and i can hardly walk about some times without feeling like i may fall over! UGH
i don’t care about the house, much. i don’t care about the garden, much. i don’t care about reading up on things or writing for that matter! much like that cloud that covers my head, it covers my mood as well.
i don’t care about dynamics and i don’t care about sex! i’m hoping forcing myself to write may help – you’ll have to forgive me if the blog becomes somewhat boring! lol
i’ve written what seems like volumes of how this dynamic works and how it purrs along nicely when small, simple but consistent steps are taken. i know the way to get there – lord knows a lot of people seem to think so – according to my blog stats.
one foot in front of the other i suppose. i am however really starting to think that these hormone pills to help with my endometriosis are affecting my mood. depression is a side effect and i think it may be one here. i haven’t been this ‘bleh’ since the peri-menopause days when my hormones went bananas and i quit all things that mattered to me then, too.
Bear comes home and generally makes Himself busy. i’m not quite done work yet when He gets in so it makes sense. afterwards however, once the day is finally mine again He continues on His busy making spree. He says He loves me and misses me all the time – but then i can’t help feeling rather ignored.
chores, dinner, tv, bed. rinse and repeat.
BLEH!
❤ n
*** i’m not looking for advice. just need to start writing and hopefully clear my head!