i close my eyes

when i’m most submissive, i close my eyes

it might be an ‘artsy’ thing, and yes i use that term gratuitously

my creative self is the one i hold most dear i think …

because it’s the one that speaks to the heart of me

the part that still has hopes and dreams

… so like most artists when they speak, i close my eyes ….

when i let you see me like that, that’s when i’m the most vulnerable

the most submissive;

because that’s when i let you see ‘me’

that’s when i’m NOT on the look out

Just like this …..

~Cheers!

 

My mission in submission.

I think for me i need a mission in order to do this thing right. For me, this is how my submission works in a real sense, in the real world. The married with responsibilities world that doesn’t allow for kink and play every moment of the day.

I have always liked this song, there was something about it that i understood. Now i know what.

I want to be the one He dreams of, standing there, understanding everything about Him. His dreams, even the ones He thought He had to give up on or put away. I want to understand what makes Him tick, and then i want to do everything in my power to offer it to Him in any way i can.

It’s not always about kneeling or wearing collars, not here anyway, it goes much further than that. ❤

Tom Cochrane & Red Rider Lyrics

“Boy Inside The Man”

So long, so long, so long, he's been away
So long, so long, so long, he's back again

When I turned seventeen
We had passion, we had dreams
Thought the love we were fighting for
Was something holy, something more

When I turned twenty-one
We were outside on the run
When I walked out with my girl, hey
We went halfway around the world, around the world and that

I dreamed that I saw her standing there
They're running for the boy inside the man
I was hit hard by the light so bright it burned
And all at once I knew she'd understand (understand, understand)
Boy inside the man
The boy inside the man
When I turned twenty-five
We were hungry, we had drive
When I turned much older then
Ah 'cause the boy was lost in pride

Now I just turned thirty-one
And I have lost and I have won
Still I've kept my dreams alive
Ah 'cause the boy will never die, never die

And that I dreamed that I saw her standing there
They're running for the boy inside the man
I was hit hard by the light so bright it burned
And all at once I knew she'd understand (understand, understand)
The boy inside the man
The boy inside the man

Ah do you understand?

And that I dreamed that I saw her standing there
They're running for the boy inside the man
I was hit hard by the light so bright, it burned
And all at once I knew she'd understand (understand, understand)

And that I dreamed that I saw her standing there
They're running for the boy inside the man
I was hit hard by the light so bright, it burned
And all at once I knew she'd understand (understand, understand)

Boy inside the man (hit hard by the light so bright)
The boy inside the man (hit hard by the light so bright)
The boy inside the man (hit hard by the light so bright)
Boy inside the man yeah (hit hard by the light so bright)
The boy inside the man (hit hard by the light so bright)

So long, so long, so long, he's been away
So long, so long, so long, he's back again
So long, so long, so long, he's been away
So long, so long, so long, he's back again

Hey, let it, let it, hey
Hey, let it, let it be, let it be

Boy inside the man
Ah let it be, let it be

So long, so long, so long, you been away
So long, back again
So long, so long, so long, you been away
So long, so long, so long, you're back again 

Sister cool this face
As if it's carved in stone
Don't leave me in this place
Like a boy without a home
Like a boy without a home

Missing Him on Monday …

Dancing With a Stranger – Sam Smith & Normani
(No, i’m not dancing with anyone else, in case there is any confusion. Just like the song and this bit fits! *smiles*)
Happy Monday! ❤ 
Hmm, hmm
I don’t wanna be alone tonight
It’s pretty clear that I’m not over you
I’m still thinking ’bout the things you do
So I don’t want to be alone tonight, alone tonight, alone tonight
Can you light the fire?
I need somebody who can take control
I know exactly what I need to do
‘Cause I don’t wanna be alone tonight, alone tonight, alone tonight

‘There must be peace and understanding sometime’ ….

Happy St. Patrick’s Day all!

I’m not in the mood to talk D/s, or make witty jokes about green leprechauns.

I’ve been listening to a very controversial but intelligent fellow lately and he seems convinced that the key to the worlds problems lies in us.

Integrity and responsibility …..  yup, that’s it. Fix ourselves and we will, collectively fix the world.

One person CAN and does make a difference, every day. This has always been my view as well.

So in light of everything that has been happening, recently and over the past years … I leave you this.

I know there are a least a few Elvis fans out there that will appreciate it. 🙂 ❤ Please take the time to appreciate the message as well. I start my days with this, to remember and to keep trying, maybe it will give you hope as well.

If I Can Dream
There must be lights burning brighter somewhere
Got to be birds flying higher in a sky more blue
If I can dream of a better land
Where all my brothers walk hand in hand
Tell me why, oh why, oh why can’t my dream come true
oh why
There must be peace and understanding sometime
Strong winds of promise that will blow away the doubt and fear
If I can dream of a warmer sun
Where hope keeps shining on everyone
Tell me why, oh why, oh why won’t that sun appear
We’re lost in a cloud
With too much rain
We’re trapped in a world
That’s troubled with pain
But as long as a man
Has the strength to dream
He can redeem his soul and fly
Deep in my heart there’s a trembling question
Still I am sure that the answer gonna come somehow
Out there in the dark, there’s a beckoning candle
And while I can think, while I can talk
While I can stand, while I can walk
While I can dream, please let my dream
Come true, right now
Let it come true right now
Oh yeah
Songwriters: Earl Brown
If I Can Dream lyrics © Raleigh Music Publishing

Musical Friday! ;)

Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you’re standing outside the fire ~ Garth Brooks, “In Pieces”

Some of you who have been around for a long while know that I love to ‘speak through music’. I’ve mentioned before that I dissect song lyrics like others do Shakespeare ….

I read a post over at His.minnie that reminded of this song! It’s long been one of my favourites and so today I will share it with you.

We call them strong
Those who can face this world alone
Who seem to get by on their own
Those who will never take the fall 

This was me, but now …

There’s this love that is burning
Deep in my soul
Constantly yearning to get out of control
Wanting to fly higher and higher
I can’t abide
Standing outside the fire 

Unfortunately I couldn’t find an original video in good shape but if you get a chance, do look it up!

I used this as my theme song you could say when transitioning from my narcissistic family to my life now. It works equally well with our relationships as minnie has so nicely put into words! *wink*

“Standing Outside The Fire”

We call them cool
Those hearts that have no scars to show
The ones that never do let go
And risk the tables being turned

We call them fools
Who have to dance within the flame
Who chance the sorrow and the shame
That always comes with getting burned

But you’ve got to be tough when consumed by desire
‘Cause it’s not enough just to stand outside the fire

We call them strong
Those who can face this world alone
Who seem to get by on their own
Those who will never take the fall

We call them weak
Who are unable to resist
The slightest chance love might exist
And for that forsake it all

They’re so hell-bent on giving ,walking a wire
Convinced it’s not living if you stand outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you’re standing outside the fire

There’s this love that is burning
Deep in my soul
Constantly yearning to get out of control
Wanting to fly higher and higher
I can’t abide
Standing outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you’re standing outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you’re standing outside the fire

Now I’ve got a CD to go find! Yes, I DO still use those …. *chuckle*

Happy Friday!! ❤

Ready in my winter nest, Bear! Come on in ….

…. in my mind anyway!

Just putting myself into my nest, mentally, makes everything a bit smoother! Hopefully it lasts long enough to make it through til the quiet hits! 😉

I’ll sit ‘in here’ even while things go on around me ….

…. it’s all about perspective!

Instead of worrying so over what I don’t want, I will focus on what i can do until it quiets down again.

I’m not going to worry about having to be out and social,

i’m going to focus on pleasing Him.

This part i never get tired of, and when He tells me He’s pleased, well ….

not much can trump a ‘good girl’ can it??

Perspective ….

dom-and-his-sub.jpeg-w=627 For right now i’m choosing this one. ❤

One more day til holidays!

Christmas Music?

Read a post this morning asking about a favourite …. if you had one. Well, since i hijacked all the music posts last year i think i’ll sit this one out. But …

I love this remake. It’s not about Santa or gingerbread but the message is still there and the style is one of my favs. Plus of course …. Kenny!! *big grin*

If you watch to the very end you will get a glimpse of what type of man he really is, that’s the truth of why i like him so much. 🙂  And this is certainly NOT overplayed … LoL

Hope you enjoy! ❤