I’ll be honest, sometimes i really just have nothing left to say here, that was the case for a short while. Lately however (since January) i haven’t really written much because i haven’t had the time!
I started working again full time and so my days are busy and spoken for. After hours i normally have a lot of time, we tend to stay around the house even without Covid! The trouble is that i haven’t got the time – alone!
When Bear is home my attentions are always on Him first. I just can’t seem to take myself away to go and write. It’s not that He has ever denied me the time or space, it’s just ME! I can’t do it ….
I know, i’m a hopeless case! *raspberries*
Once school is back in i’m hoping to get back at it in earnest. My days should slow down once more and both writing and working out are on the agenda. They help me physically but also mentally!
I’m still here, still kickin’ around as they say! Things are busy with home life but all in all things are okay.
Kink and D/s is good although a bit less than what i would like, but – what else is new?? *chuckle* Kinky sex is good and it helps to keep us connected but it is not quite enough. For both of us – we could easily fall into a more over all intense, kinky, TPE relationship on most days, but right now the privacy is simply not here.
I say on most days because truthfully life is just that way. I don’t think you can have a full, well rounded life and have only one aspect to it. That’s my opinion, not based on any studies so no need to tell me that ….. *raspberries* I am not a *one trick pony* and that includes my personality and personal life experiences.
Our life is 24/7, 365 for nearly 25 years now (23 married), it most certainly is not all about one thing. I’m not saying things are lacking, don’t get me wrong, just not quite what we aspire to.
The boys are doing well and i think i may be finally on track to figuring out what’s going on with me, physically. That would be another reason why i think Bear is more in ‘care taker’ mode and less in ‘master’. I appreciate that, i can’t say i always like it, but i appreciate it. That’s His main concern after all isn’t it? Taking care of His submissive ….
For anyone following both, i hope to update the other site soon. There are many, many new things and like i mentioned already, hopefully some light at the end of this very long tunnel!
I used to do 6 to 8 posts per week, now i’m lucky to do a post every 6 to 8 weeks!!
For anyone who may be wondering … life is good and things are going very well in regards to our dynamic as well. We have added a bit more kink (still shy on the impact play due to noise concerns) and fun to our days and that helps with the over all feel/enjoyment of the every day!
I normally take my summers off but due to the covid crises, i have decided to stay open and help the parents in need of childcare while they slowly return to normal work hours. It has hindered some of the things we were hoping to delve into kink wise but over all i’m not feeling cheated, and that’s a good thing!
I think that generally the reason for our success is that i have embraced the type of dominant He wants to be and i have found a nice rhythm in my submission to match. Most importantly – when He adjusts His dominance to suit my energy in submission, i no longer feel like it’s ‘not real’ …. or whatever the tape playing in the heads of submissives wanting to please. *wink*
Life is about learning, growing, changing and just living your best life.
These few weeks back to work have been interesting. Trying to keep up with the ‘dynamic’ energy that we want and keep up with life and responsibilities has not been easy!
For the most part however, Bear seems to be more tuned into His dominant side than He has been in a long time. I don’t think it’s just in my mind although i admit that the shift in thinking for me has been a huge help as well.
Life hasn’t changed much and responsibilities have not lessened, neither has the stress! LoL For some reason however, i think we both have found a nice balance again. There have been a few bumps along the road these two weeks but all in all i feel more connected to my ‘s’ side than i have in a long while as well!
He’s using the ‘tools in His tool box’ more without overthinking it or hesitation and i’m using my communication more without doing the same! So far, it feels really good!