Ouch!

I’ve been in a lot of pain for a very long time. Today however, the pain is when i sit – and due to other issues all together!! *raspberries*

It has reminded me of the importance of proper skin care as well! Dry skin can lead to paddle rash, a thing i assure you, you don’t want!

I’m pretty well covered in bruises, something i don’t normally have. When we take the time to warm up slowly the bruises are on the inside (deep tissue) not outside but with little time and much enthusiasm … oh well! *wink*

I’m not sure if it was all too fast, or if i’m just dealing with too much other stuff right now but i don’t seem to have gotten the normal ‘floaty’ calm that usually accompanies some play. *shrug*

Just musing ….

Happy Monday! ❤

Asking is not demanding; teasing is encouraged!

He likes it when I come on to Him, in a certain way of course, not demanding but more like ‘needing’.

He always has.

He likes it when i tease Him, within reason of course or He puts His big ‘ole bear paw down! *raspberries*

He always has.

He likes it when i’m naughty, not bad naughty but in a sexual way. *wink*

He always has.

If I want more fun in this dynamic and more “Him” the way i crave – i simply need to get out of my own way! *wink*

He likes a sexy, confident, determined submissive who knows her own mind and needs. I just need to remember to show them!

Asking is NOT demanding; teasing is very much welcomed …..

It binds us.

We’ve started adding more play (kink) to our lives again and we’ve even managed to add some impact!

Recently we got to play with the floggers, as well as some new toys that we had decided to order in the spring!

He remembered to add some bondage … for my sake mostly. It helps with my mental space, quiets things in my head. He likes it too, i’m sure of that, but with the lack of opportunity lately (years) it can be easy to just ‘skip ahead’ and forget to add all the layers that really do make it something even more special to experience. For us anyway …

We are taking a chance i know, with the youngest still at home and well, stuck! It’s not like there is anywhere to go right now with everyone cautious over Covid 19. So far i haven’t noticed any changes in him or his mental health so we move forward and cross our fingers! Our play used to be a bit of a trigger for his anxiety, not that we make it a ‘thing’ but at 18 i’m sure he can guess some of the things he overhears from time to time!

What i do notice – still notice – is that when we get to play i miss Him more when He is not here. It binds us …

 

It somehow mimics the energy and feelings one gets when you are in a new relationship. He is constantly hovering in my mind.

Happy hump day! ❤ *smiles*

 

I try, honest I try!!

‘You look like you have bunny ears when you bend over …’  

I didn’t know if I should laugh or be shocked!! It was said to me this morning – by a 5 year old!!! :O

I keep kink out of my work day because I work with children. To me, the two simply don’t mix. But then this …. *shakes head but grins*

I suppose it’s better than the day he said he ‘wanted to be down Dora’s throat’!!?!?!!

I try, I swear i try ….!!!! *chuckle*

My apologies

I used to do 6 to 8 posts per week, now i’m lucky to do a post every 6 to 8 weeks!! :/

For anyone who may be wondering … life is good and things are going very well in regards to our dynamic as well. We have added a bit more kink (still shy on the impact play due to noise concerns) and fun to our days and that helps with the over all feel/enjoyment of the every day!

I normally take my summers off but due to the covid crises, i have decided to stay open and help the parents in need of childcare while they slowly return to normal work hours. It has hindered some of the things we were hoping to delve into kink wise but over all i’m not feeling cheated, and that’s a good thing!

I think that generally the reason for our success is that i have embraced the type of dominant He wants to be and i have found a nice rhythm in my submission to match. Most importantly – when He adjusts His dominance to suit my energy in submission, i no longer feel like it’s ‘not real’ …. or whatever the tape playing in the heads of submissives wanting to please. *wink*

Life is about learning, growing, changing and just living your best life.

So too is this relationship dynamic.

Happy Friday all! Be well ❤

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Ahhhhhh menopause! (and D/s)

I’d love to say that nothing ever gets in the way of these wonderful, kinky escapades of ours … well, i’d love to say that, but it’s simply not true!!

One of the ‘rules’ we have during the summer months is dresses and no panties (unless i ask and there is a reason) when i am not working and when i am with the Bear. I’m fine with it, to be truthful it really doesn’t bother me at all, never has. If anything HAVING to wear undergarments is more of an issue than not having to!

The ‘ladies’ up top are much to proud for me to be bra-less, I do that at home (which yes, i prefer) but not when i go out unless i’m wearing something with a ‘shelfbra’ or something similar. Bear is not one to share and He has no intention of letting anyone see quite that much of His rabbit!!

So to today – i was/am very much in the midst of my subby/slave mindspace and so the pragmatic things that contradict the ‘rules’ seem to be slipping my mind! *raspberries* Enter menopause ….

Well, peri-menopause to be specific. A few years back i noticed (men, you may shield your eyes now ) that when i’m out in some extreme heat and humid conditions i start to sweat profusely. Sounds relatively normal, no? Well, probably not where you would be thinking. I start sweating like crazy between* my* legs* …urmmm, yup, that part! *ugh*

So, today, being all in the *** *** *** mindset, i went ahead and got dressed and ready for my day and didn’t even think to remember some under shorts or panties or something even though we were going to be out in the heat for a bit of time. Granted it shouldn’t have been that long and probably would have just served as a reminder but we ran into a neighbour who had a story to tell and so ….. well there we sat.

Soon i was trying to keep my legs together hoping the lines of sweat weren’t too obvious – then i was ‘casually‘ looking down hoping there was no pooling under my feet!! :O UGH!!! Finally we got on our way when i whispered (shouted) ‘i need to get to the CAR’!!!

Found a towel we keep there for ‘plug’ days and tried to be discreet about the bath i was trying to dry up from ….

*sigh* what a day! Someone once yelled at me because i was discussing menopause on a D/s forum – they said it had nothing to do with D/s. LMAO Yeah, right!

Needless to say i now need to try to get back into the right frame of mind to carry on. It could be a ‘buzz kill’ but i’m not about to let it!

 

So far …

These few weeks back to work have been interesting. Trying to keep up with the ‘dynamic’ energy that we want and keep up with life and responsibilities has not been easy!

For the most part however, Bear seems to be more tuned into His dominant side than He has been in a long time. I don’t think it’s just in my mind although i admit that the shift in thinking for me has been a huge help as well.

Life hasn’t changed much and responsibilities have not lessened, neither has the stress! LoL For some reason however, i think we both have found a nice balance again. There have been a few bumps along the road these two weeks but all in all i feel more connected to my ‘s’ side than i have in a long while as well!

He’s using the ‘tools in His tool box’ more without overthinking it or hesitation and i’m using my communication more without doing the same! So far, it feels really good!

Happy Friday! ❤

A submissive’s pet peeve *laughing*

One thing I hate most about this no panties rule is having to be panty-less and wear a dress!

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Just the other day Bear mentioned that the weather was finally getting warm and He would be requiring me to be wearing dresses again, no panties of course, outside of work.

Now when you wear a flowing dress, you bend over to grab something you see, and when you stand back up the dress has kindly wedged itself in your bum! 😛

I’ve just been reminded of all the times i either squat down to get what i need or i’m quickly pulling and tugging at the material and hoping no one around has noticed!!

Well, no one but one. I’m sure you can all imagine who i catching sporting quite the naughty grin. *sigh*

Pain filled perk!

The second week back to work and Bear is still keeping me on my toes, or ermm …. on my something anyway! *wink*

He left this message for me this morning, to be worn with my morning coffee. OYE!!

Of course, I got up later than usual today and my kid was already rising as well. I could have asked to ‘pass’ on this and pick it up some other time when W wasn’t up already. But if Bear is trying to stay on top of things and keep me engaged, i should try too, right?

W doesn’t normally get out of his room much, he’s a teenager and has all he needs right there! *chuckle* No school or friends to go visit right now so his bedroom has become his ‘man cave’!

Still, doesn’t mean he won’t meander down the stairs for a bite …. so i’m not about to take any chances in getting caught. I’ll have to improvise!

Amazingly enough a sports bra and t-shirt actually hides them quite well! Mind you it also presses and rubs things and intensifies the task for sure!!! :O

He has yet another simple task set for me later, He knows I thrive on pain more so than pleasure, pain is my pleasure. I guess that’s what makes me a masochist! Don’t get me wrong, i like pleasure as well but it’s not the driving force for my submission or my submissive mindset. It’s secondary ….

Next week i go back to work as well, i’m hoping we can maintain this refreshed energy. Normally I take the summers off, due to the current circumstances and need i have decided to work through.

I can’t deny that i’m a bit reluctant.