Just a normal life ….

Not sure what to write today, feeling pretty good mentally. Still fighting off whatever it is that has me down but getting much better and easier to manage. Anytime it wants to be gone for good would be wonderful!

The sun is shining and the birds are singing and I can’t say anything is amiss at the moment. Life is good ….

I’ve been getting back into some exercise through the day and adding squats to the mix to build up my leg muscles! 😉 And for hopefully running too!

The oldest turns 16 today! Hard to believe it some times, before you know it he will be off to university and a whole new set of worries and excitement will be at our door. It still fills me with wonder and gratitude when I think about you, me and our life together. More then I could have ever wanted, truly!

I guess that’s about all …. Happy 16th Birthday Young Man!

Love You Always Sir ❤

 

Wishful thinking?

I’ve been thinking more and more recently about getting back into some running. Now I was never a marathon runner or anything like that, truth be told I had just gotten into the idea of running and really started enjoying it before I had to abruptly stop doing it!

I had finally stopped smoking and was ready to start looking at other ways to stay active, healthy and give me my much needed release/relaxation time that my mind needed without interruption. Running seemed like a perfect way to accomplish both and I must admit I was really starting to enjoy the time! It was like yoga without the religious aspects that some instructors throw at you …. I wanted to be centered, not dwell on religious beliefs at that particular time!

Anyway, flash forward and menoBeast steps in! It got to the point that I couldn’t run for very long before leaking! Oh yeah, isn’t that calming and relaxing when you need to worry with every step that it is going to start, and once it does there is no stopping it except to stop running. Enter embarrassment and frustration and hanging up of the proverbial towel!

Well it’s been about 2 years since I have bothered to try again and I was thinking maybe I should give it another try. The issue seems to have resolved it self in other aspects of life (sneezing, dancing etc.) so perhaps it would be safe to try again here too? Obviously you don’t just start running all out from ‘cold turkey’ quitting so the slow buildup and tolerance training might work? Anyone out there have any suggestions or information on this one? I’d love to get a heads up ….

These pants are NOT made for diapers!  😛 

I don’t want to rely on just impact play to be able to de-stress, I don’t think that’s a very wise or healthy way of being. Something that can be done at anytime without much equipment or preparation I think is a wise option for a busy, working mother of two with a Sir at home! 😉 The health benefits are certainly there both physically and mentally for me … now I just need to figure out how to go about it without the wet walk of shame back home! 😛

Love You Sir ❤

 

Finally starting to bounce back …

It seems like forever now but I am starting to see the light. Feeling somewhat okay today, not anywhere near normal but at least I can stand straight(ish) and keep my eyes open, mostly! LOL

Getting really tired of working and then crashing on the couch till the next hours of work are here. Hoping to muster whatever strength I have left tonight and maybe get some fun, flirting time in with you Sir!

I’ve already missed a beautiful sunny weekend, our anniversary and warm spring weather …. I don’t plan on crashing one more evening until the rain comes tomorrow, no way!

Love You Sir ❤

Happy Anniversary Sir

Well it has been 19 years today that we started down this road of wedded bliss! I can honestly say that I never once dreamt of such a thing as a child. I don’t remember ever dreaming of much ……

The idea of having someone with me to share life and be happy and taken care of was never something I would have allowed myself the privilege of thinking or wishing for. Broken dreams were all I knew and the idea of trying for something so far fetched was not a heartache I needed to incur. And then along came you.

I wouldn’t trade one single second of this adventure I have had with you and I can’t wait to see what the next 19 years have in store. It was true then, and it still holds true now ….

“Because You Loved Me”

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I’ll be forever thankful baby
You’re the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You’re the one who saw me through through it allYou were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I’m grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don’t know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You’ve been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

CELINE DION LYRICS

Happy Anniversary Bear! Love You ❤

Thank you Sir

It seems that now since the flood gates of my feelings have been opened I can no longer wall myself off, not with those that matter anyway!

Thank you for taking care of me last night and lifting me up from under ….

I love you …

I miss you ….

I can’t wait until you’re home …

Prelude to a ….. D/s relationship?

The potato masher situation …. 😀

When Sir and I were just dating, before He even proposed I think, we went shopping for supplies for my first apartment. I needed a potato masher. Sir always did like my cooking although at the time it wasn’t nearly as good as what it could have been! LOL Anyway, we went together and He found one that looked like this …

 I wasn’t sold on the idea, I was hoping for something different and told Him as much, politely of course, we have always had that between us, but I did tell Him I was thinking of something else. He proceeded to tell me how well it would work and He was sure it was the right choice, so like a good little girl I let Him choose! That was over 20 years ago and I have disliked that potato masher ever since! For a variety of different reasons I have a hard time using it, I’m short the counter tops are too high and I really can’t get enough leverage to make the task easy. On the bright side I get a very good arm work out …. but not really what I wanted every time I mash potatoes.

I have hinted and pointed for years that I would prefer something that looks more like this! It is much easier to clean and for me much easier to use. He has said to just grab one over time but I guess my mind tells me that He bought the first one so He should change it out for the new one. It was His choice and therefore His to change? I don’t know, things that get stuck in our heads don’t always have to make sense they just happen!

So finally last month, after more than 20 years of using that darn potato masher Sir finally brought home the new one! 😀 I have already tried it out twice and must say for me it works wonderfully! It is so much easier to use and does a great job of making silky smooth potatoes.

Sir finally asked me if I liked it and I said ‘Yes Sir!’ and he mentioned that I could have gotten a new one anytime but I told Him that to me it was going against what He had wanted and therefore I couldn’t. So He says that I’m a nutty bunny, and I say Yes Sir, but just for you!

He’s starting to see and remember all these types of things now, I think my secret is out! XD

Love You Sir! ❤ and my new masher!! LOL

 

Is 7:45 too early for bed?

Sir is sick today, I mean really sick! Not the stomach bug kind of sick but He is fevered and sore and taking Advil and Tylenol to make it through.

He was stuck at work all day today and He works very early in the morning. He basically came home, unpacked His stuff and more or less fell into bed. That was around 4:30 pm and there He has been ever since. I asked before He fell asleep if I should wake Him for dinner and He said no, not a good sign.

So now here I sit, not much going on. No real chores to do and I don’t feel like reading. To be honest it has been an ‘interesting’ couple of days and I’m not so sure I’m feeling really that great right now either. So is 7:45 pm too early to go to bed?

It will be the first time in a long time since I have gone to bed without my night collar. I can’t wake Him and ask Him to put it on me, that would be wrong but going to bed without it just feels unnatural now.

The last time He was sick (which really does not happen very often) He had changed my day collar to my night one before He went to bed. It was the weekend and I didn’t need to worry so much about work and customers. Today however I was still working, so today that was not possible.

The last time I knelt by the bed, even though I already had my collar but I wanted the rest to be the same. He was sleeping and I was as quiet as a mouse but I knelt, I ran through the entire ‘ritual’ in my head and then I tucked myself in. It still felt funny but at least it was finished. Today however, I’m not sure how to proceed.

I’m starting to feel kind of fevered myself but I’m not looking forward to bed, not looking forward to not having Him tuck me into bed, not looking forward to not having My Master change my collar.

I guess I will do the ritual with my day collar on, and leave it on. Only Sir changes my collar and I think it will be fine to sleep in for just one night. 🙂

Feel Better Soon ~ Love You Always Sir ❤

Easter festivities done … :)

Easter festivities were short and sweet for us this year. Usually I host but due to some previous events I ended up with the ‘day off’. So we had brunch at a relatives house, I made dessert as usual and we got done early. The rest of the weekend is free and clear, I wonder what fun that holds in store! 🙂

All that aside, I could see just how absolutely pleased as punch you were! I can sense you watching me now, I can see you watching my actions and reactions and how your family responds to me. I know how happy you are when I act polite and social and just positively charming. I can see the pride in your eyes Sir …..

There was nothing overly kinky going on but I could certainly sense your leash on me …. Love You Always ❤

 

 

 

Comparing

~ I originally posted this elsewhere but even though it is not D/s I believe it is every bit as important ~ 

I’m writing this because I keep hearing about it over and over and I guess I just feel like getting my two cents in on the matter.

I think if you are comparing your life and especially your relationship with that of others then you are doing both yourself and anyone with you a great disservice. If you really want to be happy in your life and with your partner you should learn to find the positive things in your life instead of focusing on what you believe to be the negative. People who focus on what the other person is doing or not doing are missing the point entirely if you ask me.

The only one person you can truly control is yourself and the only one person who can make you happy is also yourself. Chances are whatever it is you believe to be a negative is either just a misunderstanding or a reaction to your attitude and behaviour. Let’s face it, most people are not rude or dismissive of someone who makes them feel happy and cherished. I have found over the years that if you are not being treated the way you want it’s either because you yourself need to work on your energy in the relationship or perhaps you are in a bad relationship and should look elsewhere. Normally it’s the first one …

The harder you work in your relationship and yourself the greater the return you will get from it, and the happier you will be. Stop blaming other people for what you are not getting and start looking to yourself. Are you being realistic and feeding the relationship positively or are you just being impatient and childish? You may not always like what you see if you take a true hard look in the mirror, but if you are honest and start to work on changing it you will find it will be well worth your time!

There you have the Coles Notes of it … Cheers!

~n