Here I am once again writing to you from a hospital room. Well that’s not true I haven’t written from here before, just filled you in on the details afterwards. This time I just decided to do it now, put it down on ‘paper’ so the thoughts get out of my head. Otherwise, they roll around and around until they sear themselves into my brain.
The appointment that was meant to be chemo and home again has turned into another admission. The Leukemia has relapsed quite significantly and so heavier chemo and inpatient treatment is needed. It should be somewhere between 4 and 7 days this time.
Needless to say I have quit work again, Bear is still going to his job since there really isn’t much he can do here anyway. Plus – we got a puppy! Bad timing I know but at the time we thought we were done with inpatient stuff and W needed a distraction. She’s a quick one, learns fast and is getting better at listening as well. I normally do the dog training but I think Bear has a good handle on it this time. 🙂 Trial run for our 6 week stay at ‘Sick Kids’ I guess.
I don’t think I’ll see him tonight, he’s running on empty with the long day of admission and late night of settling W in just as much as I. I mentioned it may be best to just go home after work today and he could come up to see us on Friday. His shifts Friday’s are only half days and leave much more time for a visit and family dinner etc. He’s off the weekends anyway and we can figure out Monday when Monday comes.
I also had to get W out of school once more. This poor kid has had such a battle to try to get graduated and now he’s too weak and too much ‘away’ to be able to get the work in. He only has 2 courses left and less then 2 months of classes. Talk about a kick in the @ss!
We’ll figure that out once the time comes I’m sure.
On a lighter note, one thing that brought the first smile to my face after discovering all this keeps popping back into my head. I thought I’d share it with you, it was on one of the trips back to the hospital on the highway.
I like to watch out the window while Bear does the driving. As I’m checking out the semitrucks which have always been a favourite, I spotted one with a silly, fun picture of Cookie Monster on the side. I guess the driver must identify with the character! I almost jumped out of my seat I swear, and pointed and smiled and showed Bear …. and I noticed that the driver saw me too. Much to his amusement I’m sure! lol He smiled a big ‘ole grin back and waved.
It made my day and it reminded me of an old friend as well. Cookie Monster has been a favourite for a very long time, and I happened to meet one on here some time ago as well. I never did see him again in the many trips we’ve made on the same stretch of road. So …. If you’re out there my friend, be it online CM or the trucker that smiled kindly back at me – Hello! 🙂
See you all soon again.