My sexuality is submissive, my BDSM side is a switch!

Just musing about my sexuality and masochism. My sex drive is on high so of course these ideas are running through my mind.

When i’m sexually charged i’m very much ready to be submissive to Him, like i mentioned before, i do find that being His submissive is very much linked to sex and BDSM. When that’s in place all other ways of serving are on the table as they say.

The other thing i’ve noticed is that my want/idea of what BDSM is and what i need changes depending on my mindset. When i’m sexually charged the ideas running thought my mind are not only masochist but also sexual in nature. Toys and body parts *smirk* that are sexual are involved and so too are sexual parts of my body and orgasms.

When i’m in a more dominant mindset i’m still very much a masochist but the way i want to experience it is different. In this mind space i want more pain, more impact and little to no sexual touching. I want to push limits and see just how far i can push my body …. this is why a good sadist dominant is important.

When in this mindset i need Him to decide when enough i enough and keep a careful eye on my body and reactions. I enjoy pushing myself to the brink, just to prove that i can survive anything i suppose. This was a dangerous game to play when we started and i did realize some time back that i was pushing too far for the WRONG reasons. It was bordering on self harm and that is not healthy BDSM!

I’m not saying that orgasms are off the table when in this space but they are all brought on by pain and impact alone. If you try to touch anything that would normally be considered sexual or effective, i loose it. The “O’ that is ….

In case anyone is wondering, no i am not the slightest bit interested in being the sadist. It really does nothing for me.

Maybe ‘switch’ was misleading! *giggle*

Happy Friday! 😀