In our life Bear gets final say on everything. He listens to me, more than ever really, and He takes what i say into great consideration. Many times He agrees with me and once in a while He doesn’t but the decision is always His. Except for one …
We haven’t been able to do much kink wise lately. Time, energy, body aches, me back to work, Bear travelling …. etc. etc. i’m sure you all know the drill.
There have however been some missed opportunities for orders and tasks and i think He feels that He has dropped the ball. I guess you can see it that way, there have been things shoved aside that really could be still in place but aren’t. Me doing things or Him ‘ordering’ things done certainly changes the feel, i can’t argue that He could have.
I don’t know about you but i don’t always stay on the ball, i have lower energy times and phases. I have times when i just need to rest and recuperate. i’ve been trying to add some energy into our dynamic recently and i went ahead and did a couple of things that i know He enjoys and appreciates.
I told Him i had kind of expected a more enthusiastic response ….
His answer was that He did enjoy it and was surprised that i would take the time to do these things when He hasn’t exactly been on top of things and essentially pulling His weight, in His view. He didn’t react more because He was in shock and frankly didn’t think He deserved my submission like that right now. He didn’t feel worthy.
Like i said normally the decision is His but not this time! I said “i’m sorry but you have no right to decide this. Every other choice may be yours Sir, but this one will always be just mine.”
Sometimes dominants need encouragement too. We are back on track …. *wink*
The worst thing you can do when you feel you’ve done ‘nothing’ is to continue to do nothing …. it doesn’t make me feel vindicated, it makes me feel neglected.