I find myself looking at decisions right now in regards to this site and what to do with it. I’m sure you’ve noticed I’ve had a couple of questions for you over the last short while. It’s all to try to get a feel for how this site is seen and what, if anything it does to ‘add’ to the blogging world.
The universe usually gives me signs when it’s time to start or stop something … *chuckle* I’m not saying I read cards or stars or anything like that. As interesting as I find that stuff I don’t use it to make life decisions. I prefer cold hard facts truthfully but then sometimes things just seem to happen …. those are the moments that make me stop and ‘listen’.
Anyway, there are a few things that I hadn’t really thought of before that are happening now. The first … this is my 1000th post! Can you believe it!?! *chuckle* I never really thought of getting this far, I was quite proud when I got close to 100, then 200 … a while back I noticed I was getting close to 1000, wow! I was starting to run on empty anyway and had noticed I was taking days in between posts, that wasn’t really like me. Perhaps a goal of 1000 was just the thing, then I would stop.
As luck would have it, I’m now posting more regularly again. Things here have taken a turn, for the better this time and I find more time and energy to devote to thinking and doing ‘D/s’. I have a post idea for ‘doubling down’ and finally the follow-up to ‘communications styles’ that I had hit on a long while back but that would mean 1001 and 1002 … hummm. My mind likes things even and balanced, what can I say strange things bother me!
There was also a comment some time back that D/s and BDSM sites are not really feasible without taking sex, spankings and kinky details. Well I made it to 1000, should I count my blessings and run???
I appreciate all the confidence and encouragement from those saying that I could try pictures and erotica and such, the reason I don’t isn’t because I’m not confident in my ability, it’s actually much simpler. I believe that my body and my thoughts in respect to fantasy and kink belong to only one man. I don’t share because I don’t want to share. It’s a personal preference and apparently a fairly odd one around blog land but it’s mine. It’s a standard (as a dear friend pointed out) that I have for myself and not one I will lower.
I don’t mean to imply you shouldn’t on your own blogs if that’s what YOU prefer but to me it’s just not a thing I want. The temptation has certainly been there, from the beginning, let’s be honest I’d get many more follows and likes and ‘friends’ if I posted about my adventures but I wanted this site to speak on its own merits without the sex to pull people in.
Sharing sex details in not part of who I am and so it’s not part of this site either. I have no issue opening up when it’s something that will help or enlighten but to share details just for the fun of it is not my style, I’m sure you have all figured that out by now. (I’m quite sure I won’t be able to explain this without offending someone so I’ll stop here. If you haven’t accepted my decision without making it about you by now you likely never will.)
So as it stands I do have a few more posts hopping through my mind but again, no real details on sex and kink. If you all are tired of the everyday thoughts and actions without the details I might just as well stop here. If you actually enjoy the site and maybe even take something away from time to time then perhaps I will continue, but 1000 is a lot of rambling from a rabbit so I wanted to check in.
The mess that will likely come from this NXIVM sex cult and the court cases and allegations is not really something I’m sure I want to be here for. If we do get an influx of people looking and possibly accusing I’m sure I’ll be off and running with posts and ideas of healthy and not healthy things in BDSM. I just finally got a bit of a break from the mental roller coaster I’ve been on, do I really want to set myself up for that?? Does my feeling of responsibility leave me any choice??
I found myself in a position of helping and healing another last summer, it didn’t end well for me. They made out okay I think and from what I last heard the damage caused by another had been somewhat reversed with my attention and time. But that was just one person and like I said, in the end it caused me frustration and stress …..
So, decisions …. with all the pros and cons evening themselves out to me I was trying to figure out if you guys would notice if I just disappeared.
I may have enlightened you or I may just have confused you more!! LoL Anyone have any ideas?? Shall I bore you some more with my rabbit rambles or shall I call it a good run at 1000 and focus my thoughts elsewhere?