Right now i’m trying very hard not to be a very frustrated rabbit.
Sir and i have VERY different personalities, exact opposites to be specific.
We also have VERY different communication styles and in turn learning styles. It doesn’t help that i never forget anything and can easily start from where i left off.
Since we are ramping things up again, or at least trying to … i’m ready to take off running and He is much more cautious and well, slow.
It feels like 6 years ago all over again and i’m really not happy about it.
It feels unfair, it feels like a lot of work and it feels sometimes like i’m not sure i want to do it all, all over again.
i was looking forward to this as a break from the stress and work and mental exhaustion of the every day battles i have faught for years. This was supposed to be my haven …. my escape.
It feels like everything i have learned, practiced and am being consistent in is being done for nothing.
I can easily stand up, pick up the reins and carry on by myself. i’m choosing to lay things down at His feet and i’m waiting ……
It’s unfair, life has always been unfair to me and now i’m fighting very hard to not get completely frustrated with the whole thing.
I have enough on my plate right now ….