Or more accurately, returning ….
I’ve written that we are returning to our more actively ‘D/s’ rites and routines. More play, a few more liberties, a few more words and looks and a few more obvious adornments – outside of the bedroom.
When we get on this train of Him and me and feeding the energy cycle it’s really easy for me to get lost in it. There isn’t anything outrageous that we do right now anyway so the two parts of my life mesh into one quite nicely, quite quickly.
So what’s the problem?
I can’t help but worry that the more energy i put into this the greater chance there is that i miss something with the kids.
Floating around happily in the after glow of ‘us’ leaves me a bit more distracted than i might be otherwise. At least i think that’s what happened last time. The boys were good, until they weren’t. Did i miss something i should have caught earlier if my head wasn’t in the clouds??
I quickly fall into wandering around happily humming and thinking of His Evilness and His needs and wants, but I can’t dedicate all my time to that, can i? I have to constantly keep one eye on the boys and life outside of the Bear as well.
It hits me like a brick wall every now and then when i’m getting just a bit too lost in Him, then i have to bring myself back down to keep track of the rest of life.
I fear that i might miss something important ….. it’s a chain i don’t like wearing.
Patience and time …. until then i walk this tightrope.