The further I get into this the more I am certain, I don’t have a ‘lifestyle’ and I don’t want one – I have a life.
I came into this looking for a way to show my husband that I value His opinion, respect His wishes and need His strength.
I am very good at being everything, for myself and by myself …. I intimidate anyone and everyone who knows me (as a force to be dealt with) and I have absolutely no time for anyone trying to tell me *what is what* who is not strong in their leadership and/or character.
I am not fake and I simply can’t pretend anything ….. I think fast and I always land on my feet. It didn’t leave much space for Him to think I *needed* anything ……
Some of the rituals or protocols spoken of lend themselves nicely as reminders to both of us that we are in this together and that I do need Him in my life and in this ‘position’. Some of them are simply calming and others are just for fun – but they could all go away and nothing between us would change, not any more!
Our connection is more in our minds than in kneeling or anything else. If things could no longer be done for whatever the reason I would hate to think that the relationship was conditional upon protocols and would therefore dissolve.
Sir has grown into quite the sadist, I don’t imagine cutting that out of our relationship would be as fulfilling as it is now, but every year I find out something new that makes play more ‘interesting’ ….. If at some point I get to where I just simply can no longer play does He then up and leave because my part of the masochist can no longer be filled? Perhaps that gives Him the right to go look outside the marriage then? Yeah, …. NO!
As I have mentioned before my marriage contract comes first. Life comes first …..
Our love is not conditional, it needs to be cared for and nurtured and fed else it might be lost but it is not conditional upon a power exchange contract that might work for now but might need to be reassessed in the future.
I thought it was supposed to be a ‘dynamic’ …… ?!?!
- adjective (of a process or system) characterized by constant change, activity, or progress.
- noun: a force that stimulates change or progress within a system or process.
Love You Always Sir ❤