I find myself in an interesting position and I’m not really sure what to make of it, or maybe I am but just don’t want to admit it….!
My logical and emotional self says that there are good people out there, the world is not a bad place even though there are bad people in it there are also many good and trying to be good ones too.
My self preservation says don’t trust anyone, don’t let them see your true self, don’t let them see that you can be hurt. More to the point don’t expect any kindness and you won’t be hurt!
My logical and emotional self says this is not a good way to live, you will never be fulfilled and forever have a very hollow existence. It says that the connection and promise is worth the possible hurt and that no matter what I will make it through.
My self preservation says you might not make it through another weak moment. It says you couldn’t handle it when you needed to most and you have done enough damage to yourself. It says you can run, but you can not hide from the evil in this land.
My true self battles with these two halves everyday, and my submissive half says “Oh Yes I Can, I have backup!’
You help me be better Sir, you help me be open …..
Love You Always ❤