Where did it go wrong in the first place?

When I look back now I honestly think that the worst and best thing that happened to me/us was menopause. Let me explain, before menopause I never would have been mouthy or disregard your wants. Even if I wasn’t getting everything I wanted or needed I would have just dealt with it myself, quietly and respectfully but by myself. Perhaps you could chime in on this one Sir so everyone knows I’m not just making it up! 😉

Once the changes started happening the physical changes were easy enough for me to deal with. I have never been a whiner and physical ‘issues’ we’ll call them are not new to me so I just moved forward and carried on. Mentally however I felt like I was coming unglued. I’m sure this is not new to anyone who has ever experienced it but it was quite the roller coaster ride. Sad, angry, uncomfortable and disoriented or just unsettled for no apparent reason most of the time. Let’s say patient was not on the list of qualities and neither was empathy or caring for that matter. I know none of this was my fault but I’m still not proud of how it caused me to behave at the time.

It did however make me more outspoken about my needs with you. This combined with those books that I had never wanted to read in the first place and I/we were sent down this path. I can’t say I’m proud of what brought us to this journey and the path was confusing to say the least, but I can say that I wouldn’t wish to change it. We may have had to make it through some rough times but this place we are in was well worth the effort!

Love You Always Sir ❤

 

2 thoughts on “Where did it go wrong in the first place?

  1. You are right nijnjte you always treated me with the utmost respect and were never mouthy to me. You always were very good at not letting anyone in and you could do it all on your own just fine.You would be the last person in the world I would call a complainer. I know you had no control over your emotions and that you are not proud of the way that you acted ( These are not who you are). I am so glad that you could trust me to be the one to tell your wants and needs to. I wouldn’t change a thing. You are the most wonderful woman to me and I am so glad to be on this journey with you. No matter what we have been through just know that I am here for the long haul and in my eyes there is no one better than you to go on this journey with.

    Love Sir

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